Rediscovering Me

Life is about changes; transitions from one place to another, from one purpose to another, from one being to another. They say that the person you are today is a completely different person from who you were ten years ago and who you'll be ten years from now. So far, at the age of 32, I've had four major transitions in my life which redefined who I am. Two years into the results of the most recent transition I am again - still - exploring how God is shaping me.

Tomorrow I will be baptized in the Atlantic Ocean as a symbol and acceptance of Christ's sacrifice done out of overwhelming love for me. On Sunday morning I will be confirmed by the Bishop in the rite for Adult Confirmation. I've been told by the priests and other church-member witnesses of previous rites that Something Happens during these sacraments, indescribable Spirit things that are part of the holy mysteries of the faith. Many at our church believe they have witnessed a direct transfer of Holy Spirit power through the Bishop at confirmation. I hope for this, though I doubt in the same way I doubt other denominations' speaking in tongues, mostly because it's beyond my understanding. Despite my doubt I also long for that kind of a connection to my Lord.

So why is this here instead of under the "Faith" tab? Through the last two weeks or so I've been preparing for the Baptism and confirmation with a lot of thought, and a lot of questioning my childhood and details of what I believe. I'm hoping that tomorrow will mark a fifth transition in my life, taking elements of the five previous people I've been and combining them intentionally into a common goal: becoming who God wants me to be. Over the next few months I hope to review my past and set goals for the future, and embrace the next adventure of rediscovering me.